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It’s been a while since I’ve gone even one day without my ADHD medication.

With the ongoing shortage of Adderall, Vyvanse, Focalin, you name it, a lot of people are struggling. Pharmacies can’t keep them stocked. People are rationing. Some are quitting their meds not by choice, but by necessity.

Honestly, I’ve been lucky. Somehow, despite the chaos, I’ve usually been able to get my Adderall refilled without too much of a wait. If there’s ever a delay, it’s short. Manageable.

Until today.

This morning, I found out my pharmacy is out of stock, and they don’t know when more is coming.

I take Adderall regularly, but I do have a few Vyvanse capsules left over from an old prescription I didn’t finish. I stopped taking it when I switched to Adderall. So today, I had a choice: take the leftover Vyvanse or skip my meds entirely.

I chose to skip.
And I remembered, viscerally what unmedicated ADHD feels like.


🧠 The Fog Came Back Fast

By mid-morning, the familiar symptoms crept in. Slowly, quietly, but relentlessly.

  • I couldn’t organize my thoughts.

  • I felt overwhelmed by the simplest decisions.

  • That creeping sense of inadequacy showed up again, uninvited.

  • Despair, real despair, settled into the background noise of my day.

I didn’t want to be unproductive. I didn’t choose to spiral. But my brain just… shut down. I couldn’t function. Not fully. Not well.


🚫 ADHD Is Not a Joke

ADHD isn’t quirky. It isn’t cute. It isn’t just forgetting where you left your keys or blurting out random stuff.

It’s a real neurological condition.
It affects your ability to function, connect, regulate, and cope.
And when the support system—like medication—is suddenly removed? You feel it. Hard.

It’s in moments like this that I remember why I started this blog in the first place.


🔁 Why I’m Writing This

Sometimes I lose sight of the bigger picture. I question whether this blog matters, or whether anyone’s really listening.

But today reminded me: this is serious. This is real. This is worth talking about.

So if you’re out there feeling off, frustrated, helpless, whether it’s from a med shortage or from trying to live in a world that doesn’t accommodate the way your brain works, I see you.

You’re not lazy.
You’re not broken.
You’re running a marathon without shoes, and you’re still showing up.

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